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This may sound weird, but American Beauty.
I went to see it when I was in the midst of a severe depression because I was no longer able to maintain my faith as a Southern Baptist. I'd been spending hours crying every night and I was absolutely terrified of my loss of faith.
That movie utterly changed my perspective.
I remember leaving the movie theater and driving with my ex to this jetty near Sarasota, Florida. The moon was full and it was so bright, and the surf was really high. We walked out onto the jetty, down to the very end. The moonlight on the shimmering drops of water and the waves, the sound of the waves crashing, it was all so beautiful that I felt I couldn't even hold it inside me.
In that moment, I realized that if this lifetime is all we have, it is so full of beauty, and that's enough.
And, I realized that a God who could be bothered to create such beauty was incongruent with the kind of God who would create hell. If there is something after this lifetime, it is not something to be feared.
I've never been afraid of death since that moment.
I went to see it when I was in the midst of a severe depression because I was no longer able to maintain my faith as a Southern Baptist. I'd been spending hours crying every night and I was absolutely terrified of my loss of faith.
That movie utterly changed my perspective.
I remember leaving the movie theater and driving with my ex to this jetty near Sarasota, Florida. The moon was full and it was so bright, and the surf was really high. We walked out onto the jetty, down to the very end. The moonlight on the shimmering drops of water and the waves, the sound of the waves crashing, it was all so beautiful that I felt I couldn't even hold it inside me.
In that moment, I realized that if this lifetime is all we have, it is so full of beauty, and that's enough.
And, I realized that a God who could be bothered to create such beauty was incongruent with the kind of God who would create hell. If there is something after this lifetime, it is not something to be feared.
I've never been afraid of death since that moment.
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