This designed ignorance and prescribed delusion of "Marxists" is why you so enthusiastically embraced a godless anti-Conservative, champion of socialism, and national traitor like Donald Trump. Gian control of your mind and you might start actually appreciating the idea that your leaders use you for your irrational sensibilities. You allow yourself to be far too easily manipulated.
Here's an exercise. Look at these as the right-wing presented them to you:
1) Global Warming is just a liberal hoax... (contrary to evidence)
2) Obama is an African-born Muslim with sympathies towards terrorism... (contrary to evidence)
3) Tomato paste is a vegetable...
4) Hillary schemed to bring about Benghazi...
5) PizzaGate... (no evidence)
5) Millions of illegals voted for Hillary in 2016... (no evidence)
6) Democrats, the FBI, the CIA, the military, the media, professionals, health officials are all a deep state... (no evidence)
7) Coronavirus is just a Democrat hoax... (contrary to evidence)
8) QAnon as a new addition to the deep state... (no evidence)
9) Democrat voter fraud scheme... (no evidence)
10) Trump's judges are now a part of the deep state too... (no evidence)
Now, after looking at this garbage all in one place, how bad does it look? How much of it were you enthusiastic to believe in? How can you not see how little they think of you?
It is this right-wing inspired nonsense that led you, an apparent God-fearing man, to an altar where a godless, bitter, and twisted man like Trump awaits. In the end, you are so very afraid of your delusions of "the left," that you simply do not care what represents you as long as it at least pretends to be a Republican for the moment. Lost along the way was your self-respect and religion.