Life is always pretty freaky when you stop to analyze. Every aspect of it, from the sounds we make and call language, physics, existence, all of it. Nuts.
Best not to go too far down that road IMO, go in, get educated, and leave...before it consumes you
Easter philosophy with it's yin/yang captures it as best as it can be captured. That is to say, not at all. If you catch my meaning, or not.
So Eastern philosophy addresses your lack of imagination specifically with a well known concept, meditation. And presumably getting to the point where you do experience that understanding they term Enlightenment. I'm being really general here, that's my impression of the underlying thread that ties all those concepts. That you're really part of the entire universe and that sense of self is an illusion. Doing that while being a self, is hard..we're wired to survive, not to ponder the universe in a visceral sense. Some say a shortcut is sensory depravation (like a tank), some may add in shrooms (Unfortunately I know nothing of this but I'm sure there is plenty of personal accounts out there.)
Some just good old fashioned meditation and focusing on not-self for years on end apparently
Just don't think about stopping your heart with your mind, those folks never seem to last very long.
Maybe contrast that to western styled philosophy. Western sees to basically accept all that stuff, but continues to approach it as the self being in charge. It's kind of strange, like we're so ballsy "Americanos" that we kicked out the English Monarchs, and we do **** the way we want. THat goes for philosophy too, universe get the **** in line....enlightenment? We call enlightenment REASON and SCIENCE. Not in feeling the universe as a whole...good lord, who has time for that?
I never see that as hopeful personally, but then I do practice mental avoidance of issues that I know enough about to know I don't need to deeply ponder them any longer. In that sense, western styled philosophy seems to be a concerted effort to philosophically avoid the void...
If you can make sense of any of that, you're well on your way!