all of us have Parker
for all have sinned and come short of the Glory of God, from Romans 3
many don't, in fact most don't.
Jesus said the 'way is narrow that leads to Eternal Life, and few there be that find it'.
Parker, you can be the few that find it.
we all deserve hell, but God doesn't want you to go there. he wants you in heaven.
as a teenager, i talked to the minister about this. God convicted me of my sin and God was calling me to change and follow Jesus.
so i did.
the preacher showed me John 6:47 'all that the Father giveth me shall come to me, and him that cometh to me I shall in no wise cast out'
that night i believed and God gave me peace.
so i repent daily and confess sin direct to God; then i asked to be filled with God's Spirit of love joy peace et al.
he does, and begin my day. makes a difference for even the Chiefest of Sinners as the Apostle Paul said. he killed Christians until God stopped him one day and he repented.
so can you.
be honest with God concerning your lack of faith et al. start there.
stay at it every day until you get peace. in time you will.
look for CR (Celebrate Recovery) in your community; basically a fellowship of christians like you that have 'hurts habits and hang ups'
i have gone there for about 4 years and it makes a difference. and it is free, we go through 12 steps of Recovery from whatever. ours has dinner every week, so i attend the dinner and fellowship. on Sunday i find a good church and worship; i attend quite a few churches, some better than others.
then i read a book on a Seminary level: 'Life in the Son' by Shank. made a difference in my understanding of God and what we desperately need to know.
enjoy peace and an Eternity in heaven.
doesn't matter what others do or fail to do; you do you.
blessings, many are Praying for you. i will
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