I feel your pain Clax. I'm a dog guy to the core. I just seem to connect with them. I love them so much I fly hundreds of miles to pick them up from shelters and take them to their forever homes
In 2015 I had to make the same choice you did. Our Sheeba was 12 years old and not sure what happened to her but I came home from work and she didn't even know me. She just stared into space and clearly distraught
I cried as she sat in the right seat of our Altima like she had done for years. Just staring out the window.
I held her as she took her last breath.
You did the right thing Clax. You were their for him when he needed you.
Remember the bond you had with such a wonder creation.
The story of "Rainbow Bridge" comes to mind and I found comfort in it.
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"Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together...."
Author unknown...
A loving poem of the journey a pet and their guradian takes to Rainbow Bridge after this life Petloss grief support
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