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Not sure if this is the right place for this, but…
At two very important times of my life, once while holding a job, and once while accidentally becoming too needy for my best friend until he died (long story), I have glitched out (my word for it) for 8 months or more. At both these times during my life, I had pressure headaches and possible tinnitus running in the background. Tinnitus is only "possible" because I only heard it while lying down. Also broke out into cold sweats, which may be caused by the pain/pressure the headache or tinnitus was causing.
At both times, I reverted to negative behavior patterns. I "spiraled out" of a job, and "spiraled into" a negative needy feedback loop that neither he nor I could break. At the first time, my inner monologue was going way too fast.
The second time started before he died. As I was grieving and acting out before he died, the negative behavior patterns continued and the inner monologue stopped.
So the question is, what happens to you when you either can't hear your inner monologue, or when it stops? I am in the process of gathering information to try and figure out if I can link that to negative behavior pattern reversion.
At two very important times of my life, once while holding a job, and once while accidentally becoming too needy for my best friend until he died (long story), I have glitched out (my word for it) for 8 months or more. At both these times during my life, I had pressure headaches and possible tinnitus running in the background. Tinnitus is only "possible" because I only heard it while lying down. Also broke out into cold sweats, which may be caused by the pain/pressure the headache or tinnitus was causing.
At both times, I reverted to negative behavior patterns. I "spiraled out" of a job, and "spiraled into" a negative needy feedback loop that neither he nor I could break. At the first time, my inner monologue was going way too fast.
The second time started before he died. As I was grieving and acting out before he died, the negative behavior patterns continued and the inner monologue stopped.
So the question is, what happens to you when you either can't hear your inner monologue, or when it stops? I am in the process of gathering information to try and figure out if I can link that to negative behavior pattern reversion.
