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For those of you who pray, what is your routine, and thoughts on the process?
For maybe 15 years now I have been working on what CS Lewis would call "prayer without words". In his book "Letters to Malcolm: Chiefly on Prayer" he made a short but convincing argument that changed my thoughts on prayer considerably.
He argued that language, as a human construct, is imprecise, and that regardless of our language, God speaks to us wordlessly, free of the limitations of human language.
I decided back then to change up some of my prayer to taking simple prayers and meditating on them to find the prayer beyond the language, the prayer with all the spirit and no words. I started with the most simple prayer-like statement I could think of, which is the statement by the Roman legionnaire who confronted Jesus on his march to Calvary. It reads "Lord I am not Worthy to Receive you, but only say the word and I shall be healed" short and to the point.
I took that statement and then worked to break it down. Knowing that prayer to God changes us, and not the world, I started by pinning each part of that statement to wordless thoughts I already carry with me. Thoughts like love and Beauty, and even anger can hit us with great meaning with no words attached. We are hit with imagery, emotion and even reason and restraint. So much of what we really experience has no words already. So after a very long while of practicing and meditating on it I was able to get through the whole prayer, in it's truest meaning, without thinking of any words. 15 years on and the vast majority of my prayer now is like this. No words, just the core meaning underneath the word.
It's kind of interesting too because since I have started praying without words I've found a much more active inner voice. It feels like I tuned the radio to a new channel.
I won't venture to guess that it's more than just the product of my new way of prayer and new way of processing thought, but something definitely changed.
I've had many instances of things that happened to me with this new inner voice that have been very comforting and unexpected, and I'll pass a few on now:
1) Years ago I was in a job that was falling apart, with a new family to support, and I was searching for a new job. I pulled into a parking lot for an interview with my anxiety in overdrive. I stopped, turned off the car with the intent on doing a small wordless prayer when suddenly the axiety broke and I felt a warmness wash over me. Without even thinking, like it wasn't me, I said out loud "Thanks, Mom". She had died a year earlier.
2) On the day that my Daughter died my wife and I got in the car for a 2 hour drive to pick up my youngest daughter from her summer job out of state. While we were in the car I was equal parts numb, exhausted and sad. Suddenly I was shot through with a chill, the kind of jolt to the nervous system that some get that causes a shiver, but it didn't make me shake the way it normally would, it just washed away the sadness. With that jolt to the system I got a wordless phrase in my head that basically translated to "I'm alright now, Dad". I broke down in exhausted, but not sorrowful, tears.
3) Just a few weeks ago I was in bed and at around 3am I was jolted out of my sleep, again the same weird chills-but-not-chills rolled over me and a wordless phrase came to my thoughts. It loosely translated to "Be Prepared" with the object of the thought being my wife and daughter. We would learn later that day that my wife's mother passed away that morning.
Now, all of this can be pure coincidence, God knows my life over the last 10 years at least has been awash with coincidences. But these events prepared me or saved me emotionally in ways more profound than I can really impart, and I credit it to the way I tuned into that inner voice.
For maybe 15 years now I have been working on what CS Lewis would call "prayer without words". In his book "Letters to Malcolm: Chiefly on Prayer" he made a short but convincing argument that changed my thoughts on prayer considerably.
He argued that language, as a human construct, is imprecise, and that regardless of our language, God speaks to us wordlessly, free of the limitations of human language.
I decided back then to change up some of my prayer to taking simple prayers and meditating on them to find the prayer beyond the language, the prayer with all the spirit and no words. I started with the most simple prayer-like statement I could think of, which is the statement by the Roman legionnaire who confronted Jesus on his march to Calvary. It reads "Lord I am not Worthy to Receive you, but only say the word and I shall be healed" short and to the point.
I took that statement and then worked to break it down. Knowing that prayer to God changes us, and not the world, I started by pinning each part of that statement to wordless thoughts I already carry with me. Thoughts like love and Beauty, and even anger can hit us with great meaning with no words attached. We are hit with imagery, emotion and even reason and restraint. So much of what we really experience has no words already. So after a very long while of practicing and meditating on it I was able to get through the whole prayer, in it's truest meaning, without thinking of any words. 15 years on and the vast majority of my prayer now is like this. No words, just the core meaning underneath the word.
It's kind of interesting too because since I have started praying without words I've found a much more active inner voice. It feels like I tuned the radio to a new channel.
I won't venture to guess that it's more than just the product of my new way of prayer and new way of processing thought, but something definitely changed.
I've had many instances of things that happened to me with this new inner voice that have been very comforting and unexpected, and I'll pass a few on now:
1) Years ago I was in a job that was falling apart, with a new family to support, and I was searching for a new job. I pulled into a parking lot for an interview with my anxiety in overdrive. I stopped, turned off the car with the intent on doing a small wordless prayer when suddenly the axiety broke and I felt a warmness wash over me. Without even thinking, like it wasn't me, I said out loud "Thanks, Mom". She had died a year earlier.
2) On the day that my Daughter died my wife and I got in the car for a 2 hour drive to pick up my youngest daughter from her summer job out of state. While we were in the car I was equal parts numb, exhausted and sad. Suddenly I was shot through with a chill, the kind of jolt to the nervous system that some get that causes a shiver, but it didn't make me shake the way it normally would, it just washed away the sadness. With that jolt to the system I got a wordless phrase in my head that basically translated to "I'm alright now, Dad". I broke down in exhausted, but not sorrowful, tears.
3) Just a few weeks ago I was in bed and at around 3am I was jolted out of my sleep, again the same weird chills-but-not-chills rolled over me and a wordless phrase came to my thoughts. It loosely translated to "Be Prepared" with the object of the thought being my wife and daughter. We would learn later that day that my wife's mother passed away that morning.
Now, all of this can be pure coincidence, God knows my life over the last 10 years at least has been awash with coincidences. But these events prepared me or saved me emotionally in ways more profound than I can really impart, and I credit it to the way I tuned into that inner voice.