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I don't know if this is the right forum or if I will get good responses but I need to get a few things off my chest. I have a falling relationship with all my family members, especially my brother. I think it is because of his gf who happens to be Russian. I don't care too much for Russians' but she really gets to me and I really hate her guts and his too. But I think that it is her who is making him into a jerk.
My brother tends to talk down on me and tell me things that can just get your blood to boil and then he says "I can tell you these things because I am living," or "whatever I tell you should be making you stronger". And whenever I defend myself I typically get the calm down you are such a jerk for getting this way. Yet they don't see that it is them who get me angry instead they think it its because I should be grateful to be felt like crap. I feel like crap and I don't have any relationships with people. I have connections isssue and my relationship with my gf ended because I had connections issue.
My brothers gf thinks she is part of the family or some odd crap like that that she talks down to me and tells me things she should not and when I defend myself I get chewed out by my other family members or my brother. I get chewed out a lot by my family, and school was like that as well. I still haven't forgotten how I was treated in school.
I wasn't too treated good in high school or middle school by the kids and I can't remember too much of pleasant memories with my family members back then when we all were together. I feel that my family won't understand why when I leave I will not be coming back to see them. But at the sametime I feel that I shouldn't leave them but why stay if they talk down to me always? Life is hard and it was never an easy thing I realized that at an early age. I should have left when the opportunity was there but I thought I was doing my mother a favor by staying but apparently not. She told me I just started to help her out with the rental units but that is a lie because I have always helped out since I was in middle school.
You know its gotten to a point where I just get a gripping feeling in the back of my shoulders when my brother and his gf are here. When they are here everyone acts differently.
If I left for good you'd guys believe it would be understandable? I am turning 24 and I had the chance to leave at 19 when I graduated from high school but I didn't because of my idiotness. And I had the opportunity to leave last year too but there is no blame but myself for not taking the opportunities.
My brother tends to talk down on me and tell me things that can just get your blood to boil and then he says "I can tell you these things because I am living," or "whatever I tell you should be making you stronger". And whenever I defend myself I typically get the calm down you are such a jerk for getting this way. Yet they don't see that it is them who get me angry instead they think it its because I should be grateful to be felt like crap. I feel like crap and I don't have any relationships with people. I have connections isssue and my relationship with my gf ended because I had connections issue.
My brothers gf thinks she is part of the family or some odd crap like that that she talks down to me and tells me things she should not and when I defend myself I get chewed out by my other family members or my brother. I get chewed out a lot by my family, and school was like that as well. I still haven't forgotten how I was treated in school.
I wasn't too treated good in high school or middle school by the kids and I can't remember too much of pleasant memories with my family members back then when we all were together. I feel that my family won't understand why when I leave I will not be coming back to see them. But at the sametime I feel that I shouldn't leave them but why stay if they talk down to me always? Life is hard and it was never an easy thing I realized that at an early age. I should have left when the opportunity was there but I thought I was doing my mother a favor by staying but apparently not. She told me I just started to help her out with the rental units but that is a lie because I have always helped out since I was in middle school.
You know its gotten to a point where I just get a gripping feeling in the back of my shoulders when my brother and his gf are here. When they are here everyone acts differently.
If I left for good you'd guys believe it would be understandable? I am turning 24 and I had the chance to leave at 19 when I graduated from high school but I didn't because of my idiotness. And I had the opportunity to leave last year too but there is no blame but myself for not taking the opportunities.