Thank-You.
This is one of the weirdest moments of my life though. I am so apprehensive over seeing my first love, after 40 years.
That's the problem. Men might not always like to admit it but your first real girlfriend, first serious one, that person is special to you forever no matter what. It would have had to have been a truly horrible situation not to be.
The trouble with that is, sometimes people do change.
I ran into MY first serious girl a few years ago. Our relationship was special but it ended with her not having the courage to make a move with me, and no matter how many times I tried (3 times) and how long I carried that torch, she was just too chicken to move.
In many ways she was still the same girl I remember but the years had not been kind to her mentally or emotionally.
I was and still am happily married, and I was on business so this was more a case of me satisfying my curiosity and getting closure.
It was nice to talk to her but it was also sad.
And then a friend of hers told me that she died suddenly from a massive stroke about eight months after I saw her.
I don't have words, it was tragic. Her two sons were already grown but she didn't deserve to just up and kick the bucket like that, she was barely fifty years old, and had never really been out of her home state, never done anything exotic, foreign, new or exciting.
She worked a crap job and just paid bills and stayed alone.
I say she was robbed, and her kids were robbed, and her friends were robbed.
I'm lucky I wound up with my special someone.