- Joined
- Nov 21, 2022
- Messages
- 156
- Reaction score
- 70
- Gender
- Male
- Political Leaning
- Libertarian - Right
When I first started posting here, I thought I could give reasonable positions and arguments. And while that was partly true, I have grown to realize that in my brief tenure here, I "matured backwards" and grew petulant and impulsive.
I became a slave to the reaction score. It didn't matter how accurate or good a post was, all that increasingly mattered was making hot takes to gain fame. And I, like so many others, crave attention.
I learned about the dark side of my thoughts, that they came across on the threads as callous or indifferent to the suffering of others, or were indifferent. My contrarian ego was manifested in ugly ways and I made ugly and hurtful comments belittling others.
All my dealings with the news, all my searching for meaning among the chaos of politics and the news led me to this: Becoming puny in brain and tiny in heart.
People can see my posts. They know what I said. Let them stay there as a symbol of my ego, callousness, and vanity. Hopefully it will provide lessons for later users on how not to argue on the internet.
So, I will be leaving now. And not only DebatePolitics, but the whole seamy mass of internet politics. I have grown to despise it. My heart has become hardened. I want a heart of flesh not a heart of stone. I want to serve Christ faithfully and love others. And my involvment in internet politics is getting in the way of that.
There is much I could say, but there is only so much time on this sad planet. Goodbye, and I am truly sorry for my pride.
I became a slave to the reaction score. It didn't matter how accurate or good a post was, all that increasingly mattered was making hot takes to gain fame. And I, like so many others, crave attention.
I learned about the dark side of my thoughts, that they came across on the threads as callous or indifferent to the suffering of others, or were indifferent. My contrarian ego was manifested in ugly ways and I made ugly and hurtful comments belittling others.
All my dealings with the news, all my searching for meaning among the chaos of politics and the news led me to this: Becoming puny in brain and tiny in heart.
People can see my posts. They know what I said. Let them stay there as a symbol of my ego, callousness, and vanity. Hopefully it will provide lessons for later users on how not to argue on the internet.
So, I will be leaving now. And not only DebatePolitics, but the whole seamy mass of internet politics. I have grown to despise it. My heart has become hardened. I want a heart of flesh not a heart of stone. I want to serve Christ faithfully and love others. And my involvment in internet politics is getting in the way of that.
There is much I could say, but there is only so much time on this sad planet. Goodbye, and I am truly sorry for my pride.