I was abused in my relationship.
I am so sorry to read this. I hope this thread does not add to your pain. It seems a healthy, hopeful gamble
on your part to reach out to your community of this forum.
I don't think we can control who we find ourselves most attracted to, but more likely where the opportunities
are to encounter them. I want to advise you to choose someone who is an older brother of sisters and to try to
learn what you can about a man who interests you, from his younger sister(s) but that isn't how those I've
been most attracted to would likely end up in my life, or not. Calculation and methodology like that is probably
better focused on finding a tolerable, wealthy partner.
I don't know about you but I couldn't settle for tolerable, I need irresistible attraction, the feeling like this is
meant to be. I don't know how to set that up. In my experience it has to unfold spontaneously.
This professional, Epstein, did try to "force it," 20 years ago,
An interesting experiment to try to solve some of the mysteries of love.
www.psychologytoday.com
October 10, 2014
"...However, another member of the panel, John Gray of
Men Are from Mars fame, believed Epstein was on to something important, and that he should be commended for his commitment to
education in the field. “We have been relying on romantic myths rather than the relationships skills that make
marriage work,” the relationship guru stated, seconded by another panelist, the aptly named author Pat Love. Love agreed that Epstein’s idea had merit given the fact that more than 50% of marriages in the world were arranged and, on average, they lasted longer than those of Americans. “Half the world believes that first you marry, then you fall in love,”
she said, of the mind that practicality followed by fondness could indeed serve as an effective path to the long-term development of romantic feelings.
So was Epstein’s bold experiment successful? More no than yes, I would say. None of the more than 1,000 responses he received was compelling enough for the experiment to move forward, for one thing, suggesting that finding a partner through a personal ad was probably not the best approach.
He did ultimately meet someone but not through his advertorial
(it was on an airplane) and, while the woman agreed to be part of the project, the fact that she lived in Venezuela and had children from a previous marriage who did not want to leave the country made it unlikely to succeed. Unfazed, Epstein planned to test his concept with multiple couples and, if the results were positive, develop relationship programs based on “structured” love. Picking a mate based on passion was “like getting drunk and marrying someone in Las Vegas,” he remarked, thinking the time was right for arranged marriages to make a big comeback."